It was 5.02am this morning and my new Blackberry (which I didn’t even know was on or off such is my knowledge of it so far) buzzed and woke me. It took three goes for me to plug in my PIN number but when it did the text from Mum in Christchurch sent a shiver up my spine “Terrible Earth Quake”. It was one of those moments that I shall never forget. Or the next 15 minute frantically trying to contact them and finding a headline on stuff.co.nz that read in huge lettering that a 7.4 quake had hit Christchurch.
Were they trapped under a pile of rubble and one got text out? Were they struggling to find their way around? Clearly they were scared.
I felt devastated with concern and became upset. It made me realise how much my folks mean to me and them being vulnerable with the force of the earth against them was very difficult.
Thankfully we made contact and it was obvious that they were scared. Dad said it was like a bad dream that he hoped to wake from. Like most folk they had no power, books were thrown from shelves and crockery and ornaments smashed.
We’re little beings in a universe that is never static. Planet earth is relatively calm, although today’s events make you wonder, but that’s because we are so small and temporaty. The universe might be mighty and completely beyond our command, but we have emotional connections with loved ones that gives us meaning.
When the core of that meaning was put at risk for me, I felt an immediate and deep sense of empathy. It was me. In this moment did I felt the depth of meaning in this relationship.
They are safe, but they’ve had a frightening experience.
I’ve always known what matters. Today I felt it.
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great to hear the Memorial Ave dwellers are all okay! my bro just got power and water back on a couple of hours ago, so grateful he is not hurt or his partner and my Mum was off to church this morning so she is back on track! I’m finding if difficult to be so far away from them as I want to get stuck in and help them – that’s the do-er in me – nice blog Stephen